Plain Confused

"The Poet," by Tom Wayman puzzled me significantly. In the title I first thought that it might be about the poet himself, but has a read there is no way this person could write this. I asked myself if a poet was having difficulties writing something and this is what they saw. Someone losing there position on worksheet or page in a textbook? Is it someone who has just many disabilities and their describing them? To me it was a little harsh that someone wrote flat out that they don't understand what the hear or read. It is rather sad someone can't handle a yes or no question. Into the second stanza it reminded me of someone who has Alzheimer's with a difficult memory. It could be an old person with this disability, then i ask myself what if it is a small child. Although most children can tell a story from a picture. "May recognize a word one day and not the next," that questioned my whole thought on the poem. I was rather anger at it, because I couldn't grasp the concept of what this person was trying to say. What message is he trying to obtain. I jump back and forth from line to line, reading out loud, going back and forth on who is this relating to? I am just so confused. It is trying to make a point, but what point? It could be talking about a whole institution of people maybe with learning disabilities? Maybe even a nursing home with patients who are just not the same as they used to be. Im really just so lost.

Love/Hate Relations

In "Please Come Late," Hugo Williams describes to be someone who is trying to let go a loved one. This person is having a love/hate relationship with himself or herself. They are trying to except the fact the the other is not coming. Although in the same way wanting them to show up. They tell themselves to suffer, to wonder, to beg, but then second guess themselves and try to tell their mind it is to late. They tell themselves that the other is thinking about them, well hoping at least. At the same time wishing they don't cross their minds, therefor they can let go. As they try to occupy their mind with something else, yet the problem is still there. It just will not go away. As this person is in their mind going crazy, they are still in love, but not being able to recognize is much easier. There was still passion here when the relationship began to dissolve. Of course more for one then the other. As much as they want to, they want to hate this person, but they simply can't. It continues to eat them alive. "Hate Poem," by Julie Sheehan is explaining someone having a whole lot of hate for something. Every little thing is a bother, but it takes caring to hate. Every bone in this body hates you, every little thing they hate. Just like in "Please Come Late," I see it as another couple, where he or she is trying to hate the other. This is obviously a relationship gone bad. This person still cares though, just as much. They just have a different way of showing it. They believe that telling themselves all the things they hate, or that hates the other is going to help them cope with the fact that the relationship is over. Either poems mention about wanting the other back. Although in "Please Come Late," the person goes back and forth in their mind about whether or not they want the other to show up or if there is even still thought there. In "Hate Poem," it is all strictly HATE! This person seems to be really tore up inside being as hate is used in every line practically. It makes you wonder what happened in this relationship that was so bad to make one hate. In "Please Come Late," you get a sense of passion just because the person is so back and forth. But in "Hate Poem," there is no turning back, they hate. Like mentioned earlier, it takes someone to truly care to give the time and energy to hate someone. If there wasn't so much care still there, hating them wouldn't even matter. They both approach the same thing, but in there own way most defiantly.

Ever After

The poem is about a husband and wife who split up. The relationship has changed. We don't know which of the two spouses changed. Could of been one? Could of been both? One has come to terms with not knowing the other anymore, to not knowing what the two as a couple has become. Each individual no longer knows what they are.  There isn't an "us" anymore. There now individuals of their own. From love at first site to complete strangers. It even states that they are separate now. I think there either going through a divorce or had gone through one. The word ex has already been put to a label. It is not only a word put in front of husband or wife, for this now separates individuals. It has a whole new meaning that is now in front of there once know husband and wife to ex-husband and ex-wife. It almost seemed like even if there were happy moments it was never talked about, about being together as one.The brief talk about a wedding states that they were happy at one time. The detail about sweetness of layers in a white cake, makes me believe that is the only time of happiness, but in spurts. It came and it went. Then slowly one thing began to cause change and unhappiness. One after another and just kept on. I also believe that who ever is speaking this is the one having a harder time then the other. They weren't the one who changed. They want to believe they stayed the same and tried while the other didn't. The other who doesn't care that they were no longer an "us".

A Mother's secret

Throughout the whole book I was very curious in why the mother was so unhappy. I tried to see more of her point of view then anything. I mean her husband was a doctor who later in the story got a very nice raise. That didn't seem to cheer her up, it was almost just a small distraction from her unhappy self. You never saw them talk until later in the book when she is yelling at him and his new form of communication was to just leave and go to work. Which I did not blame him, I wouldn't want to be griped at all the time like that. She always seemed to hate on David. No matter what he did he was always getting in trouble. He could barley say a word to her without getting his head cut off! The only time you saw her facial expression change was when she was hosting a party or playing bridge. I thought seeing the way her mother treated David would explain it. Her mother must of treated her the the was she treats David right? That didn't seem to really be it either. She really hated her life. After David had his first surgery and was in his room, mother decided to come in and act nice, somewhat that is. It was almost like she was trying to help her guilty conscious because we learn David has cancer, so in her mind being nice before he "dies" helps her. She always seemed to do that to, make it about her. Many years after that when David was seeing a shrink for his problems he discovers one day after coming home early, his mom in bed with another women. A women we had met in the beginning of the book who mother was actually smiles around. It then explained everything. Answered all my questions, but then made myself ask new ones. Mother was hiding from herself. She was unhappy in her marriage to Ed because he was a man. She was clearly a lesbian and in those times it wasn't talked about. Just the look on mother's face when David walked in was almost like a sign of relief. She didn't have to hide anymore. Her secret was out and she knew it, and was just waiting for that moment. Mother just wanted to be able to be herself and she couldn't.